"It's Deb. And I'm calling to let you know I think you're a shallow friend."

What:

Another baby shower for the books.  My family is essentially fulfilling the commandment to multiply and replenish the earth for the entire human race.  Literally I have cousins getting married or having a baby every month.  I just went to a baby show for one of my cousins and we're supposed to have 5 more before January.  I made a discovery about myself at this one though.  This is totally self-diagnosing and probably exaggerated but I think I have a tiny bit of social anxiety.  I always dread going to these things and then I worry about saying something offensive or forgetting someone's name.  Or just saying something downright stupid.  And I am absolutely dreading the day when I have to have my own shower.

So What:

I don't normally like doing any kind of self diagnostic things because I think people go way over board with it.  But this one keeps popping up in my life because I've been put in a lot of socially settings lately and I'm becoming more aware of it.  I think at one point in my life I knew how to talk to people at parties or pick up conversations with people I hadn't seen in a while.  But I seem to be getting worse at it, which is an issue because I am going to be going to a lot of these social settings, especially at what stage of life I'm at.

Now What:

I guess the point I'm trying to make is that I need to do something about it.  I don't believe that anxieties are an untreatable thing.  I think back to my time on my mission when I had no social worries bothering me what so ever.  and I think the way to fight it back is to practice.  So I hope that I can learn to put myself out there and care less about what others think about me and worry more about just talking to people and enjoying myself.