I wore a bra and brushed my teeth before schlepping it up that hill. Two Fat Drops of Awesome!

What:

I think I'm always posting about stress, or getting my feet under me, or some topic related to those ideas.  I've recognized a pattern that seems to have formed in my mind of always keeping track of the things that I'm struggling with or fail at rather than paying attention to the things I've done well.  I've slightly depressed all week because the only thing I can think about is the recent mistakes I've made or the lack of effort in some areas of my life.  I think this is partially part of my personality and maybe a little bit the outside pressures of a culture that makes me feel like I need to be doing more and better things with my life.  My dad is always joking with me because every time I call him, its usually some business item or very impersonal phone call.  and at the end he says"Brooke, are you stressing out? or are you having fun with life?!" Most of the time I can't say yes with the latter question.

So What:

This is an awful way of thinking! and I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one who does it.  Besides the spiritual level that Heavenly Father does not wanting his children to think of themselves like this, its just downright depressing.  Its hard to hang out with people that think like that.  Because often if they're insecure about themselves then some of that frustration gets take out on the people around them.  Also people that think like this have a harder time getting things done and lower their expectations for themselves.  This sickness of thought needs to end

Now What:

I learned in a Relief Society Lesson one day about this mommy blogger who had posted something along these same lines.  We read this post together and that day it actually stuck with me.  I think she puts it very simply and humorously while still getting the point across.  Here is the blog post:

http://www.daringyoungmom.com/2012/12/19/drops-of-awesome/

I highly recommend that everyone read this post,  but the gist of it is that its hard for us to recognize the good things we do because they're usually small little things.  But if we learn how to count the "drops of awesome" that we do every day, we wouldn't even think about the bad things.  At that would likely empower us to do even more good things.  Its really a matter of retraining our thought process and we could do some amazing things.